lately I have been feeling...off.

I can't really explain it, 

because I don't really understand it.

yet.

i have this feeling inside me,

like how something is on the tip of your tongue.

this feeling just isn't coming up to the surface

for me to see it yet.

and it's driving me crazy.

i'm sitting here on the couch while 

everyone else is in bed for the night.

and that feeling is so close i feel

like i can almost touch it.

but i can't.

part of me is thinking,

am i feeling like doing something radical?

am i feeling like i'm too much

a part of this world?

too bogged down with all this stuff

and technology and busyness?

maybe.  

so i'm going to sit here, and continue 

on with life and this nagging feeling

where i feel so off deep down inside of me, 

and keep hoping it reveals itself to me.

and just...

wait.

because i don't know what else to do.